Communion

Of late, life has been quite challenging and ever for it all the more rewarding. It can be wonderful sometimes to be a spiritual person who often is involved in religious experiences. At the same time, it can be hard to find safe spaces as well as times to process all of it. This can be especially true when they involve other people one spends much time with otherwise as well.

All of that said, who would ever willingly give it up? Shared experiences are what allow us to find out more about other people, and our own selves. They are what communication is built upon, so that one may learn of things before directly experiencing them. After there is communication, what cannot be done?

Waking Affirmation

As I lay here half asleep, so powerful
The world would change if I willed it
Let me slip back into far away dreaming
Or burst forth into discovering today

In these moments I am insane traveller
Prone to far more than flights of fancy
Below me awaits a sea of my imagination
Longing to drown me again in sleeping

Is it brave to wake into a world known
Where a small inconsistency in memory
Can be just shrugged off, brushed aside
Named as nothing more than me mistaken?

Is it fear we run from escaping dreams
Calling this reality and them mutable?
So often we lose control, try to wake
Clawing our way back into this world

Is it control then so many would seek
Rendering this reality wholly knowable
To flee from sleep into this dreaming
Banishing magick into the dark night?

This world to me then would be dulled
No surprise waiting around each corner
Here Be Dragons only on children’s maps
Creatures like me told to stop dreaming

So I will take control myself instead
And too inspire those who would as well
We will weave magick into your reality
Show you just how much it is dreaming

We will seek not the end of your world
Wishing only to wake those still asleep
Perhaps then we shall indeed be feared
Opening the eyes of all to choice again

What happens to your dreams when waking
A mad dash to hide a player’s missing?
We would not tear this world to pieces
But if waking sleepers all did become

Remembered friends with dreams strange
Lovers remembering joy to them you gave
Worlds tied by these countless strings
Together are woven, become a tapestry

Lose never that which binds you to them
Memories of moments, of stories shared
Each thread part of what you hold dear
New ways to see, and to travel between

To forget is to linger and wander alone
No home but your own, deep in darkness
Paths leading never out from your door
No visitors coming and no wider world

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I worship love…

I worship love, even to the point of being a priestess of such. At times I have even been claimed as an avatar of love, a personification granted the full weight, depth, and intricacies of this both primal and divine force. In recent times I often find myself feeling scattered across many individuals, times, and even many worlds. Always it is a collection of similar experiences, an infinity of congruent moments drawing my attention in so many directions. Ever it is a plurality of moments filled with awe-inspiring love, or lacking it to such an extent that I feel as some spirit visited upon those instants to bring hope.

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Fire at everything burns away

Fire at everything burns away
Making holes for water in to flow
And gladly does it do ever so

But as time does go on passing
Things do grow more ever cold
Fire fading from water so close

Form that has our water taken
That by fire once was given
Crumbling to drifting snow

Thankfully in all our loving
If only one this remembers
Eternal blooms fire ever so

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Echoes of dreaming

How much of what I say is only echoed by the world around me? I find myself nearly constantly creating my own experience, shaping the world to be one of my own choosing. So little input seems to come back the other way, or at least input that is not so familiar that I discard it immediately. Were I to not do so, I would drown in the sea of reverberations, being overwhelmed by an unchanging reality that strives in so many ways to be unchangeable as well.

Even discarded this reality is hard to ignore, and the weight of it is even harder to be free from. The silence of a world far removed from this one is a welcome respite. The countless fears of the people of this world would cut through any empty moment here, the screams of children wishing for things to have changed, to have never lost the belief that they have any true power over others. It tears at me like some ancient demon, summoned from a bygone era to drag me backward into pasts best only remembered.

So much would I have lost over these long years were it not for my friends. Those people I hold closest to me are the ones who stood out, that gave me at least some small, short glimpse into their own world. They are the ones walking through life carrying not the weight of this reality but of another, and at times they tread very lightly upon this one. So much more than just people they are to me. These artists of reality who dare — even for an instant — to shape their own worlds, they are muses of the highest order.

So brightly they shine that they are stars, and in the sky of my nights they are what guide me ever onward toward home. My dream is not of a world for all to share, but the deeper dream of worlds for each to share. I would have the sky be filled with stars, for any dark place to simply be where someone has not yet blossomed in your eyes. This deep dreaming of mine may be yours as well if you wish it, one of awakening into the endlessness not of possibilities but of imaginations.

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As we hunger do we thirst

As we hunger do we thirst
Let us do our teaching first
Upon the bones we leave behind
Etchings of unusual kinds
Patterns here do repeat
Pictures there but incomplete
Things of sound becoming seen
Made by our teeth have been
Howling into music crafted
Words emerging from our laughter
Snarling beasts ever untamed
Though still you give us names

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Teeth that bite and tear and rend

Teeth that bite and tear and rend
Claws of you not even pieces leaving
Words burning through and through
Lives into empty bodies pouring
Never after Never endlessly fleeing
Leave behind their worlds of dust
Ashes once but even memory fading
Evers and forevers dreamed remain

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To say that I worship Naamah…

To say that I worship Naamah is to say that I worship every mirror in which I see my reflection. It would still not be wrong to say this, for I have surrendered myself to Naamah in this world and all others. I have become a being which has ever been a part of her. She has spoken through me, and accepted the surrender of others to herself through me. Yet still I am myself, and I have lost nothing in this surrender.

I speak of Naamah here as a modern interpretation of many overlapping mythologies and concepts. Even more deeply, I speak of her as a part of my my own personal spirituality: my religion. She is to me that of what someone would see as divine which — in finding love — steps between reality and mortality to preserve the creature which inspired in it such feelings.

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Eternal threads may all you be

Eternal threads may all you be, as are we

But as you stroll out into day and into night

Upon walks of cement — and something else

Remember fondly not a time that, once upon

For time is as the sun, come ever-dawning

Let your mind fill with that there is now!

Wander not, thinking of yourself someone lost

Into every scene, all parts by writers unseen

Each of us is woven, as you too are indeed

Into this fabric, deeply, of dreams and hopes

Until you, in some day not of your choosing

Pass further onward, even perhaps to wander

Seeking again the ephemeral glimpses of truth

Which from your path prior here have led you

Fading in others’ eyes, as all who wander do

For they turn away, fearing to see stark insight

Seeing never water’s depths inside your eyes

Missing endless sunrises laid bare beneath

Until one day, in your own time then perhaps

No mirror will show you to be one they knew

Having cast aside all but truly singular selves

And turning you to face one last mirror still

Your life and all that you have left behind

Reflected there as a winding endless path

Suddenly straight, looked though and in upon

Coming unto these gates, you will so proclaim

To the fabric itself of this, world of all worlds

That you shall, unwilling, no threshold cross

Saving that, not unscathed you shall emerge

But burned to ash — Beyond! Becoming dust

Further knowledge upon this fool’s journey

Being wiser for the roads all have walked

Knowing that any whom would seek to hold us

Spent all their energies chasing only shadows

For each of us — as ever — elsewhere walks

Living always amongst your unaware forevers

Our dreaming, not cobwebs draped on somedays

But visions of sea and forest both unending

Shimmering desert past all horizon stretched

Fields of grasses, grains — no unsightly bones

We your Evers frolic in one world of worlds

And while we do give some unwarranted credit

For many names we would claim as ours alone

Uncounted people in shadows of us walking

We would count amongst you here — and hearing

Some who more than grasp at understanding

Parts that on this stage of your living memory

Have not players given their true full breath to

Those who we, once having talked it out with

Come to blows, and even chewed the fat with

We would welcome in our stories for forevers

Those you might catch, perhaps a glimpse of

Not quite, in all your mirrors, truly seeing

Around the edges until, in madness creeping

You find your way has, perhaps, been lost

Life in these shadows ours, not only moments

A world on cue, though, precisely scheduled

Save for this, some breaking news appearing

Alert the world! Wake all your sovereigns!

But not before their speeches are written

Genuine concerns, so skillfully directed

People around, are all of our parts playing

Scenes flow from one, then into another

Barely met lives seem faded in importance

One day you find, remember us fondly, we pray

Around you only friends and lovers gather

Save for when, and we ourselves do tremble

You do set aside a place and time for Evers

All around you gathered, those who someday

Playing only secret roles as great players

Writing not of their mad, fantastic visions

Having once been there, having seen your show

If from them flows nothing of new forevers

They dream of fragile things, becoming Nevers

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You make your own meaning

You make your own meaning. Take the life you have found yourself in and make it an expression of your endless self. Leave no feeling unexplored, delving to the full depths of each as it is discovered. Place no bounds upon your search for meaning.

You are more than a creature of mind and body, and yet at the same time you are shaped by more than the spirits that flow through you. The situations you find yourself in are eternally repeating meetings between forces far beyond your reach. As time goes on you can step back and watch them playing their games, exploring your own feelings instead of those that are taught and expected of those playing the roles granted.

Without you and the world around playing host to them, these creatures would expend the energies of a thousand suns in a single moment of their interplay. They do, still, and yet to our eyes the death of an entire civilization might be shown by someone’s smile starting to fade and nothing more. Seeking your own self brings with it gifts of insight and visions of things that most would turn away from and leave eternally forgotten.

Step back and see the countless worlds vanishing into the never because a conversation was cut short. Hear the voices of untold millions surrendering a moment of their existence to cry out together, making sure a single word is chosen over another. In these ways and in many more, ranging from the subtlest through to the most blatant, do the powers that cross all the many worlds show themselves. Those who can take hold of such changes in possibility — and use them to their own ends — grow in time to become some of the grandest roles most would ever hope to play in even the smallest of ways.

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